Thursday, December 10, 2009

Life In The Prison


PRISON... I used to call this place with that name... lot of things happen here. From the best memories ever, till the most bad experience in my life until now... i also meet all kind of people here.. the one that i called brother and sister, feel like my own family, friends, dad, colleague, lover even enemy... Its a full package prison...
sometimes i felt how hard to live here, suck.. like what i felt now. but plenty of times i felt so happy with the people around me and all the moment i got. this prison can be hell for you but also paradise...
theres a lot of story can be share.. i have a short memories with a limited capacity of brain to remember it all. thats is why.. i'm goin to start become a story teller of my own in my prison. Just to remind me, i've been here.. till oneday.. i have to leave this place to feel the freedom and facing another adventure in my life.

the story of Weda Bay Prison will just began

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Majuuu...jalann!!

its a big step that i decide to take
maybe im selfish this time.. for thinking only about me, myself, my pride
for ignoring all friend who trying so hard for me.. and think about what will happen if i take this way. for ignoring my mom feeling, even that at the end she will always support me.

I know it will be tough.. its not easy at all as what i always think and hope... ITS NOT!!
But im sure with my decision this time. i've been enough with this things...
Yes it will be difficult to look for a new things to do...
Yes it will be difficult to live with size of my pocket after this...
Yes it will be difficult to leave all my friends here... even that maybe for them with or without me will be just the same.. people come and go. thats live.

But NO.. nothing can change my mind!
Honestly.. i try to forgive them.. I try to forget everything.. I don't even want to look for who fault it is.. and i will always pray may this place become more and more better in the future. as what my dream before...

For you.. my friends, my family, my crew, my lover, my enemy, the angel, devil, father, brothers, sister.. all of you who become part of my life for the last 4 years... i have to say.. im wake up now from this dream... and sorry i can't joint with you all in the garden created in the wonderland of our dream. and thanks God..i've been part of it.. cos it give me a lot of lesson about life.. and the labirin of human brain.. see and learn when people decide they have to turn left or right...

I decide to MOVE FORWARD
Majuuuu...Jalann!!

Friday, November 27, 2009

my note.....

Monday, November 23, 2009

kamu..kamu..kamu.. Rindu













dan banyak Kamu yang tersimpan di hati .. tapi diriku kehilangan photo kamu.. >.<
miss u all.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

aku.. Dia.. kamu

kalau aku ga balasin sms atau ngangkat telpon
karena ada hal lebih penting yang aku pikirin daripada pria2 yang tidak memiliki ikatan sama sekali dengan diriku

A : kenapa sih kamu? ga suka ya terima sms ma telpon aku. dari dulu dulu kamu tuh selalu kaya gitu.. ga berubah!! Malass\.. cuma kata itu yang kamu tau!...
Aku : *sakit hati*.. g mau lagi ngeladenin orang macam gini.

Dia : kamu baik2 aja baby? gimana harimu... aku skype ma temanmu hari ini buat nanya keadaan kamu karena khawatir kamu ga ada kabar. take care disana yah. can't wait to see u. kiss kiss
Aku : *terharu* gak menghakimi atas sesuatu yang dia gak tau pasti

B : gimana kabar? take care
Aku : *tergugah* but to flat isnt it?

bukan bermaksud membandingkan.. tapi kalau wanita lain di posisiku. kira2 bakalan seperti apa mereka menyikapi.. pasti seperti aku!

Monday, November 16, 2009

kiwi gift - paua mania


wrap it in a blue plastic..
not a special wrapping with wonderful tape outside..
not a great stuff with a beautiful shape or expensive..
but thanks for wishing me a good luck and happiness..
i know that u choose it carefully.. and the fact that u bring something crossed few country enough to make me happy.
it become really special for me..

Friday, November 6, 2009

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cant sleep no more.. its all becos :
- 1 and a half glass of 47% (the big..big..glass and strong)
- get a puke in the core shed (what a shame on me)
- wake up after2 hrs sleep only.. and cant close my eyes again (REALITY IS FINALLY BETTER THAN MY DREAM...)
- nanggung.. my travel out in the next 2 hrs...
- think..... " can i just stay on site during my 2 week break so i can see mr.turkey every single day??".... 2 month left.goin to be real hard >.<

why u have to love her

pic : photobucket.com

------WOMAN------

you can feel her charm in form of a sister
you can feel her warmth in form of a friend
you can feel her passion in form of a beloved
you can feel her divinity in form of a mother
you can feel her bleesing in form of grandmother
yet she so tough too...
so naughty...
so charming...
so sharing...
so melodious...
she is a woman...
she is life...
RESPECT HER

Thursday, November 5, 2009

reality timurbarat : Eastern sexy tan skin

Waktu sma dulu, pertama kali saya ngeliat muka kakak tingkat yang putih kinclong bak habis diamplas trus di kasih dempul.. seperti tembok2 rumah gitu... sebagai gadis desa yang innocent and pure dan belum mengenal yang namanya kosmetika.. (even till this time, bisa dibilang diriku ga pernah bisa familiar dengan yang namanya make up) saya pikir.. " kasian banget, kok mukanya jadi kaya topeng gitu ya??" ampe teman saya akhirnya memberi kultum a.k.a kuliah tujuh malam buat ngejelasin kalo jaman sekarang ini anak2 gaul pada pergi ke skin centre buat merawat kecantikan kulit mereka....

kalo diingat lagi... duit di kantong saya jaman itu gak cukup banget dewhhh buat ngedaftar jadi member di skin centre.. apalagi mo beli cream-x yang harganya.. ampyuuunnn.. makjang. bikin menggigil.. bbrrhh...!!

Entah mengapa saudara saudara, kok kita2 yang diberkati kulit coklat indah atau kuning langsat ini sering banget ngiri sama mereka yang kulitnya putih bersih.. trus kalo liat bule yang kulitnya putih kok kayanya keliatan cantik aja yach.. walopun sebenarnya kaga lohhh!! emang.. warna bisa membutakan mata kalee yeee...

bukannya gimana2.. jujur aja.. saya suka keliatan rada putih kinclong.. tapi saya ga maksa pengen putih sampe harus pake produk kosmetik yg ada whiteningnya gitu. paling produk dengan pemutih yg saya punya cuma krem ketek doang..kekeke.. secara ketek saya rada memburam. kan ga keren kalo pake baju "you can see my ketek" tapi keliatan kaya ada tompelnya...

anyway.. lagi-lagi, karena saya suka rada ngesok ngomong ama bule.. and bule juga suka rada ngesok kalo bisa ngomong ama saya.. jiahahaa..narsis : mode on... beberapa dari mereka yang ngeliat tingkah konyol serta pernak pernik saya sering nanya hal yang berkaitan dengan masalah kulit sexy orang timur ini.

waktu diajakin melancong ato renang under the sun yg dah kaya neraka jahanam panasnya, mereka suka bingung sy lanjoottt aja ga pake protes and finally askin question "gina, u not afraid being black..or if ur skin burn cos of the sun?? many indo girl i know is like that!!" fuihhhhh.. *melongo*
trus pas pake body lotion abis mandi, ada lagi yg nanya.."its not content whitening.. why?? cos i seen many indo girls likes product with whitening.."...halah..lagi lagi *melongo*
tipe pertanyaan seperti ini dah angin ngembus ditelingan... g bisa diitung jumlahnya.

sama halnya waktu akhirnya saya mutusin buat masuk ke salah satu skin centre.. setelah sambil nangis bombay berusaha ngikhlasin duit di dompet kecil saya melayang.. *gasp*..berharap bisa sepadan dengan masalah jerawat yang pengen saya atasin ^_^.. waktu si dokter mau kasih krem..saya dengan lantang dan kepedean bilang "doc..saya ogah krem yg ada pemutih. saya ga pengen putih kok doc..cuma mau ngilangin nih jerawat ajah"..ciiee...iya kah apa??

but thats the point that i always told to all people who askin the same question..

im not obsesses being white, i dont mind have this yellow brown skin as long as it look CLEAN...yup..Clean and Healt.. thats the key word.

hei.. last note. kisanak..klean pasti tau dong berapa duit yang harus di keluarin ama teman2 western kita buat ngedapetin kulit coklat indah yang bahasa keren mereka "Tan"... gilaa, waktu kita ngadem di bawah pohon mereka berjemur di bawah matahari berjam jam, masuk ke tabung yang kaya peti mati di salon2 terkemuka... hhmmm... jadi bangga juga diriku ga perlu sussyee buat ngedapetinnya. walopun jujur aja.. dulu pernah minder dengan kulit yang kaga kinclong kaya semua orang... and butuh waktu rada lama buat nyadarin that.. i've been blessed having this skin.
Now... i am what i am.. accept that. i love my brown skin. kalo bukan kita yang bangga dengan apa yang kita miliki siapa lagi.. tetap beryukur ^_^

I Love My Eastern Sexy Tan Skin

Monday, November 2, 2009

reality timurbarat : saya orang indonesia yg bisa bahasa inggris

gara gara getol belajar bahasa inggris meskipun sampe detik ini kemampuan berbahasa saya masih sangat di bawah rata2, masih keke bayi baru belajar ngomong dech malahan.. ada yang pernah ngomong ke saya... " ich, ngapain juga gw harus bs bhs inggris, gw orang indonesia yang cinta bhs indonesia. kalo tuh western people mau cari makan disini mereka harus belajar bahasa indonesia dong"

CORRECT... saya setuju banget dengan hal itu
tapi kenyataannya.. di dunia yang saya gelutin sekarang.. gak muna dech... kemampuan bahasa itu sangat penting kawan!! emangnya siapa orang berduit yang mau bayar geologist seperti saya dengan harga yang lumayan... nope, bukan anda kisanak.. kebetulan mereka orang bule.. aka expat.

trus ada lagi yang komplain gara2 status di facebook saya sukanya pake bahasa inggris.." dah lupa yach ma bahasa sendiri? katanya cinta ama indonesia"
ngomong ma tangan gw.. just fuckoff.. bukannya mau bullshit. kecintaan saya ama bangsa saya g bisa kamu ukur gitu aja dari bahasa yang saya gunakan. at least saya udah sering nunjukin hal itu dengan cara saya sendiri yang kamu ga perlu tau...

so my question is?? have you ever do something for your country yet?? except blaming others people for being the destroyer?? even only a small things that we dont need to know.. ask you self bro.. look into the mirror...

saya belajar bahasa inggris bukan karena saya mau di bodohin orang2.. tapi karena saya mau nunjukin kalau saya gak bodoh... kita, orang timur... orang indonesia ga bodoh seperti yang dianggap oleh sebagian besara masyarakat dunia.. yang bahkan belum pernah denger tentang negera kita ampe mereka ditempatkan di sini....

hukss jadi ingat, sering debat ama om pilot ku tercinta hanya karena kegetolan saya ngebelain indonesia.. dan kegetolan dia ngebanggain ke-kiwi-annya.. its a never ending story there..upsss..ok..intermezzo!!

tau ga apa yang teman2 expat saya katakan ketika mereka menyadari bahwa ada seorang wanita timur, dengan kulit coklat indah dan bergelar sarjana, menerobos hutan yang orang2 lain ogah buat ngejalanin..

mereka bilang :
i though Indonesian people can not speak english gina, u just surprised me.. ur english is owesome

i've been travel into many places in indonesia and never find in any others place a girl like u, educated, pretty, independent... u can do lots of thing that out of my imagination and at the same time still dont mind to join with us for a drink and chat without afraid of anything (and of cos showing that i didnt look like a whore).. we are teman gina... teman

hey gina.. its the first time i have a mate like u. u are different cos for more than a years staying here i've seen many indonesia woman just throwing away themselves to a bule.. but not you mate.. not you.. i respect you dear.

girl.. all the cunt here is obsessed on you because you are pretty and educated and they can not get you at all as what they think they can.

so temans,
just open up you mind and not just stayed in the cage u build for ur self... its a big world out there. and i would love to talk out loud to the world someday.. i'm one of Indonesian Woman who can do something that u think i can not !! Harree Geneee!!

xoxo,